Friday, March 14, 2008

Where oh where will HE send?

Some days I wake up and I feel like I'm king of the world... that I could do anything and go anywhere and be totally happy. Some days its just the opposite. I drag myself out of the bed and dread the future... I dread the unknown and really wonder what will I "end up" as. Funny how there's no in-between for those mindsets, at least not for me.

Bradley and I are 5 months from being done with our time here. His contract will end and I will be done with my life as Secretary Mandi. Waiting for the Lord is never easy - and we know that - but it seems to me that this kind of waiting is even more harder. :) We are letting Brad's contract end on FAITH that God will provide the next step for us. We are willingly letting go of two full time paid jobs... in order to seek what the Lord wills for us. We feel so called to serve in a local church and now its just a matter of waiting for the compass to spin and land in a direction.

Being that Brad and I are so very different... you can imagine how some of our conversations go. He would love the big city, bright lights, multi-everything kind of congregation... the BIG church right downtown would be his dream. I can't help but giggle when I think of my ultra-mid-west hubby in a downtown church position. The truth is... he'd be just fine, but I still giggle. :)

I, on the other hand, dream of the church closer to family. The smaller more intimate congregation where you are truly invested in EVERYONE's life. I want to be in the mom's morning group and know everyone by name... I dream of potlucks and Church picnics. (sigh) Thankfully God sees the desires of both our hearts and still knows exactly what we need.

I was googling for some pictures of churches today... church buildings are some of the prettiest structures. This is what I imagine...

Brad would be here - only, picture this HUGE building in the middle of Chicago or NYC.
















And I would be.... here, and loving it. The trees, nature, no street lights...

Thankfully the Lord already has our plans all figured out. Now the test is to see how patiently we wait and how earnestly we seek Him.

2 comments:

Crystal said...

hey! want to move to minneapolis?? :) we LOVE our church here. it is a big church... but i'm amazed at the many ways that the church makes community happen. your hubby could even look at the program my hubby is doing!

there are many people who do the program.... people who just graduated college... people who have graduated from seminary... people who lived their life doing another career... now are in the 50's... and are going into ministry... missions... etc. there's about 8-12 people in each class. it's a two-three year program. and they're still accepting people for this coming fall. they extended the deadline a bit longer this year.

http://thebethleheminstitute.org/main.aspx?itemID=153&hideBar=False&navID=138&news=21&pid=127

if he would even consider it... or if he has questions.. my hubby's email is johnathonbowers@gmail.com

Crystal said...

oh! the church website is www.hopeingod.org