Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
This Thanksgiving. I'm burdened (once again) for my Grandpa Bill. He's now 82 years old, a retired, Korean war vet who has survived raising 3 boys and a stroke. He's a strong man, a determined man, a man who is always right... but a man who is lost and without a saviour. In my mind I know his days are not forever, but I haven't accepted that in my heart. I feel like God has preserved him for a reason... the ultimate reason. Yet, holiday after holiday... no cry out to God, no eternal decisions... Just me settling for him pushing it aside. I want boldness - I want gentleness - I want the gift of heavenly pursausion in his favor. Is there such a thing? I know the arguements - is he Chosen for heaven? Or not? I don't know where I stand with that conversation, but I do believe that his sins are just as forgiveable as mine - and I do know that God gave His only son and was pleased by His death and covering of sin. As the holiday approaches, I'm not only thinking of what new pie I will create...but how I will word my next letter to grandpa. He reads my letters and saves them - they are all in his top drawer right by his chair. Grandma says sometimes he reads them again and again...what could he be thinking about? Could he already know his need... but be too proud? This year, I want a new approach - I've been writing since I was 10. I want an approach that he will stop and see. Pray with me this holiday for Bill Grice, that his heart will soften to our Heavenly Father's forgiveness... that he will call on the Lord. This is harvest season - I am a laborer, this is not just a holiday vacation - at times it even feels like the front lines of a war. And I think that's ok and I think that's necessary for me... I live an easy life.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Awww...Just as soon as we are all in love with the autumn weather - it starts to slip away. If you don't live in North East PA, you are missing quite a color show this year!
We celebrated homecoming @ BBC a few weekends ago. That is always an interesting, exciting, fresh time. I love going and seeing who has been recently married, or who is having what number of kid - it was neat to reconnect with people I hadn't seen in awhile and mingle with people I maybe didn't mingle with while in school. Homecoming brings out the best in people, I think.
Here is a pic of me and the hubby during Homecoming day - he's adorable! I love this picture! I love being married and I love Bradley!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Friday, September 7, 2007
Well, this past weekend I had another chance in life to feel dramatic and to really just wallow in my imagination - and in the beauty of creation! What a great God. We went camping at Promised Land state park, and it's just perfect! The trees were tall and gorgeous, the air was filled with the smell of rutic campfires and grilled food, the sunrises were amazing... :) I loved it! I always feel that much closer to heaven when I have a few days to just sit and enjoy this world God has given to me.
There was one tree right by our tent, it's roots were crazy. It was a huge tree... and so many of it's roots were grown above ground - it reminded me of the strength of our Lord.
Everytime I passed it I would try to remember to thank the Lord for this life he's given. He IS so good. Beauty... drama... I think God wants us to feel that. I know I feel it, and in nature when I'm alone with just God and his creation I feel it more. It's a perfect thing! Thank you Great God for the beauty of this earth.
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Friday, August 31, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
The last few weeks have been so wonderful; we've been joking around, having a good time and just feeling so alive together. We celebrated our 2nd anniversary two weekends ago in Delaware and it was so nice just being together. He gave me some incredible yellow roses (2 dozen).
Brad has changed so much over the last two years - and it's a positive change. So many times I hear women say that their husband has changed and it's a negative conversation - "he never does this anymore", "he's just soo.....", etc. When we first got married I prayed that God would clearly direct what it is we were to be doing with our lives, and day by day that prayer is being answered. I love my husband for his passion for the word of God. I love him for his third born personality- where most everything has to be funny and he'll be the one to provide the comic relief. I love my husband for his sensitivity to the Lords leading in our marriage. I'm thankful to God that he's growing Bradley more and more into a godly man. The picture of Brad reading is the view I see now, typically, - he's hungry for learning, and that's a very different person then who I knew in college. Always smart...not always so dedicated. I dedicate this blog to my husband, Bradley Joseph Pausley - I love you!
Friday, August 17, 2007
By the way... if you know of a church that is looking for an associate pastor... pass it this way, we are in the preliminary stage of thinking/planning for the future. FUN!
I have nothing inteligent to say on this Friday, but thank you LORD for Fridays and weekends. :)
Thursday, August 16, 2007
I got a phone call lastnight from my Dad; he wanted to share a prayer request with me, as we often do this kind of exchange. As he shared his heart and some things that were going on in my hometown with people I love and care about... rather then thinking of ways to pray for them, I started feeling annoyed - "what is wrong with this person?", "why are they so driven by every wind of doctrine?". Good grief - as I hung up the phone and shared the news with Brad, I even explained to him in an annoyed fashion. And this is why unbelievers doubt what we say we have. I'm not beating myself up - and I don't think its wrong for me to feel a little frustration towards this person who is "once again" living for the "What's cool in Christianity" phase - but, I wish I had a heart like Jesus', full of compassion, etc. I'm a work in progress. Aren't we all?
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
I've heard it said a million times, almost to the point of cliche "God is good all the time", and I know he is - it's his nature, his character - of course God is good. However, the last few weeks I've come upon a time in life where I feel like I am really living this truth. My husband has been traveling for his job @ BBC, he's been gone for quite a few weeks off and on, sometimes 2 or more in a row. At first it was fine because I could clean or escape in a book or just... whatever. But after awhile, obviously, I missed my spouse. I missed our everyday chit-chat, him balancing out our mattress at night, being able to fall asleep because everything was fine and in its place. I found myself reaching for things to do - start scrapbooking again, change the sheets on the guest bed just in case anyone should show up unannounced, wipe down the mirrors, hmmm...should I rearrange the closet that no one sees?! All these fillers, which in and of themselves are not bad - but, the problem was - my heart was yearning and being tugged by the Lord, "Come and meet with me", "use this down time to recharge, grow, strengthen". And, I didn't - I wouldn't.
I wasn't used to having this time, as I had when single and in college. I was used to filling my day with Bradley (again not a bad thing). But, had I become so callus to the "still, small voice" that I really thought of time with the Lord as optional? Skip tracks - I have just recently become involved in a bible study with some girls from the area. We are using the next few weeks to build our core and decide what direction we want to go. It was my turn to share/teach last week - and wouldn't you know.... I decided to share from 1 Kings 19 - Elijah (after escaping Jezebel) and his encounter with God after the fire and the strong winds, etc.... a still, small voice. God chose the quiet route. Here I was in my life looking for BIG signs, BIG works, BIG things from God - but I wasn't in tune with listening and when I did it was so easy to blow it off. grrr! Had I allowed Brad and his spiritual leadership to take the place of my intimate time with the Lord?! Well, I wouldn't go to that extreme - but, all that to say - I had an amazing couple of hours in the word the day I was studying in 1 Kings -and, God is good. God is good that he brings to mind our areas that need improved, and that he doesn't settle with us being mediocre - he pulls our hearts, he is the ultimate romantic pursuer!