Saturday, October 8, 2011

These Days...



I'm sitting here at my desk looking out our bedroom window. The leaves are changing to yellow, brown and orange. It smells amazing outside. The way Thanksgiving smells, and makes you feel special and alive and comforted. I feel unfamiliar with this keyboard and this screen - seems like I never get the time to blog my thoughts and ideas lately. Life is full and rich. My week days are filled with children and household duties and ministry appointments - I'm thankful for each of those. My evenings are filled with family dinner around the table, tv shows with my husband or grocery shopping - also thankful for those things. I do scratch at my head and wonder how each week seems to fly by a little bit faster. {sigh} Anyway, Fall is clearly here and we've been enjoying some little family things each weekend. My girls are growing and we are such a fun stage with them. Ava loves going and doing, she's my busy body. She loves activity and outings and go-go-go. She is so disappointed when I tell her, "it's time to go home" and asks, "can we go to one more place?" every time. August will be 5 months old in a few days. She is SO AMAZINGLY go with the flow. She never cries. She is smiley and chubby and perfectly adorable. This morning I walked out of the room she was in and came back to find her rolled over onto her belly. {sniff, sniff} So begins some mobility already. She is an amazing creation made by an amazing creator, God.


This weekend our church is hosting our Big Picture Missions Conference. We have missionaries from all over the world and our own country here with us - sharing their calling and experiences. It's intense. Lastnight my heart was so challenged by hearing lady after lady talk about how God uses them, seemingly insignificant, in HUGE ways. I was reminded of my order : Child of God FIRST, Wife SECOND, Mommy THIRD. Needed that reminder. My tears welled up {and over} as I heard them share their hearts pains about leaving family behind to serve, health issues endured, and roles taken on all the the Glory of God. How easy my life seems after hearing such things. Do I even have anything to dare complain about? We had a ladies day of pampering and fellowship yesterday - lunch at a fancy pizza place, starbucks pumpkin spice lattes for dessert and then pedicures at the Aveda salon. :) Wow, did I feel special! I was blown away by just listening to the conversations around me. Women challenging each other to step up and parent for Christ. Pastors wives encouraging other pastors wives... experienced missionary ladies giving advice to young, upcoming missionary ladies. It was EXACTLY what the bible exhorts us to do as women... "TEACH THEM". Ah, my heart was full. I loved sitting in the back of a van talking to two dear pastors wives about how we raise our children. The struggles we face, the victories we have, the desire to follow God harder and more diligently and the obstacles we face. Part of me {although we were all exhausted} didn't want the day to end. I want to have those conversations everyday. And I came to a realization - something I think I already knew but forget about : we all have the same struggles. They sometimes have different faces behind them, different price tags or circumstances. But they are so similar. We need each other. Cracked pots trying to serve a holy God.


Just thoughts.


It's saturday. The fam and I are planning to make an appearance at the International Food Festival downtown today. I'm hoping to try some Ethiopian food or maybe something else. It's an amazing fall day - and I couldn't think of any other people I'd rather be with.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Tasty Tuesday :)

First, this is how my almost 3 year old says HAPPY AUTUMN...

Thank You Ava Edyn for casually taking a bit from every single one of momma's prized and treasured Gala apples. {ahem} After I was done being grumpy about it... then I got all teary eyed choked up looking at those tiny teeth marks and thinking how one day that won't happen. Ah Geez I'm such a nostalgic!



It's Tuesday and Autumn is CLEARLY present :) As I went to unlock and open up my front door this morning I saw leaves on the ground... yellow leaves! Ah, I love it! Took a few deep breaths and the day already felt amazing!


I'm sharing a recipe today that is just about perfect for this weather and season. It was new to me, tho, I'm sure others make something similar. And, I used those bitten-into apples to whip up the quickest and most delicious baked apple cobbler for dessert. Enjoy!


Simple Sausage Lasagna
1 lb. bulk pork sausage
26oz jar/can spaghetti sauce of choice
1/2 c. water
2 beaten eggs
24oz cottage cheese
1/3 c. grated parmesan
1 1/2 T. dried parsley flakes
1/2 t. EACH garlic powder, pepper, dried basil and oregano
9 uncooked lasagna noodles
3 c. shredded mozzarella


1) In a large skillet, cook sausage over medium heat until no longer pink; drain. Stir in the spaghetti sauce and water, simmer, uncovered, for 10 minutes.
2) Meanwhile, in a large bowl (or kitchenaid stand mixer) combine eggs, cottage cheese, parmesan, parsley and seasonings.
3) Spread about 1/2 c. sauce mix into a greased 9x13 dish. Layer with 3 noodles and a third of the cheese mixture, meat sauce and mozzarella. Repeat layers twice.
4) Cover and bake at 375 for 45 minutes. Uncover; bake 10 more minutes or until noodles are tender. Let stand for 15 minutes before serving. YIELDS 12.


A few clarifications on how I did this...
-Ran out of basil and used Sage instead, which, actually was great because it accented the sage in the sausage :) Yummo!
-We have never waited the 15 minute set up time... and it was fine. A little more runny, but hey, it is a lasagna!
-The recipe called for up to TWO tablespoons of Parsley, but I refrained... a certain little girl has wised up to "hidden" ingredients that are green :) Use what your family likes. It does absolutely call for DRIED parsley, tho.


Enjoy the season, the weather, and the warmth of a delicious home cooked meal!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

A life update





Fall is here! Welcome, Welcome! How this momma has missed it. We celebrated the day by attempting to make sugar cookie cutouts... got about 7 done and the chaos was just more then could be handled. :) So, we finished them tonight, complete with icing and sprinkles.





I finally got some fall decor up and I'm happy with what is done. I'm learning to make use of what I have and am still so thankful for my mom passing so much of her stuff down to me. But I have found some inexpensive ways to add some "spice" around here, too. Thank you again to The Dollar Tree for some unexpected finds a few months ago! The above picture is what is hanging on our front porch door. I found the basket and onion grass all at The Dollar Tree, for, you guessed it... a buck a piece! It's simple and warm and cost just a few bucks depending on how much onion grass you use. :) I love it.

While this isn't the best picture of it... we were given this awesome coffee table a few weeks ago. I'm SO thankful for this piece! I had been wanting one for so long but we just didn't have the funds to make it happen. Thankfully a friend was willing to hand it over for FREE! I had this bucket that was bright white and some random plastic pears and a bunch of viney twigs... voila! This is what I came up with for the coffee table. FREE :) It works.



Last, the front porch. Right now its entirely taken over by kids toys. But, this is what I came up with for my hanging shelf. It works for now. Nothing too fancy, but, it was free because I already owned it all. And so now we are ready to celebrate and live in the Autumn.
Last Sunday my husband had the awesome opportunity of baptizing 2 of our teens! That will NEVER get old to watch, for sure. So excited to see how the fruit of this summers growth is carrying on through the fall. Praising the Lord for changed lives!



In just a few months Ava will turn 3 years old. Seems totally impossible that I could be mommy to a 3 year old, but, it's true! She's all about playing dress up, helping me cook, pestering her little sis {sigh} and reading lots of new library books. She's a delight - and yet, learning every single one of my buttons and just how to push them. Lovely. She's completely potty trained and just growing and learning new things by the day!

August is 4 months old and just doing so so well. She is learning so many things at once that I can hardly keep up. She now sucks her thumb and it's absolutely adorable. I love it. She has found her toes, is trying to roll over, and has found her sometimes very loud voice. The other day she was sitting up all by herself, too, causing momma to tear up {of course} at the fact that my baby is already SO big! We started rice cereal this week and she did ok - not really sure about this spoon thing, but, she'll get it eventually.



And as for me...


well, I'm fine. Dreading losing this baby weight especially as all these yummy autumn and winter holiday treats are coming up. I'm still babysitting full time and it's going well. We've pretty much found our groove.


I'm tired a lot. And I've been battling with some loneliness, but, I think every woman must go through this off and on in life. Just thankful for my "Friend that sticks closer then a brother". Fall is underway and life doesn't slow down. There is always a reason to give thanks and I'm fighting for it daily... rejoicing in the little things.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

He knows me

My eyes search the room for something comfortable. I grow so weary of this tug on my heart, my nerves, my whole self... insecurity.
Since when does the extrovert morph into the introvert? And why do I have so much trouble with simple communication?

I know the Father of Lies tries to use this against me. I can feel it. I walk into the House of my God and I'm attacked from all sides. "You aren't loved here", "Your outfit doesn't look right", "Everyone is watching how you raise your children...the wrong way." The lies can almost choke me out. And it's in these moments where I have to fight for truth. I have to battle and wage war against my deceitful heart, human mind and fears. And most importantly I have to remember... IT'S NOT ABOUT ME anyway.

I'm comforted by this alone... HE knows me. My creator. Sustainer. My truest friend. He understands my plight, my fears, my frustrations and desires. And He loves me. Even me. He knows how I want to belong. He knows my insecurity and my strengths. He knows me - He loves me. And I want that to be enough.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

A Little DIY on this Saturday

Woah, it's been A-while since I've done any kind of DIY project. But the other day while the kids were playing and the baby sleeping... I got a little stir crazy. I'm still working on Ava's room and those bare pink walls are driving me bonkers. I just couldn't think of ANYTHING that would look cute/toddlerish/but not babyish in there, and I knew buying something wasn't an option right now. Here is what I came up with. :)






Materials needed:
3 pieces of cardboard in similar sizes
spray adhesive
scissors to trim cardboard
Material, roughly the same size as cardboard
wooden letters
white spray paint
Hot glue gun and extra glue sticks
Upholstry tacks

First, I gathered my cardboard and trimmed each piece down, as well as cutting rounded sides. I used cardboard leftover from an Amazon shipping box. :)


(Outdoors) Spray the adhesive onto the cardboard and quickly place material onto the cardboard. You'll need to smooth it out and pull it fairly tight. Once it's set up for a few minutes (I waited like 2 minutes) you can then begin to hot glue outside edges of material to the back.


Once all your edges are glued down - it's time to glue down the wooden letter. I applied a LOT of hot glue to the back of my letter, centered it, and pressed down hard for about 30 seconds.


And there you have it! An easy, quick and FREE crafty wall art for the big girls room. :) I used a decorative upholstry tack to hang them up - it's a smaller hole then a nail and a pretty external design. I already had all of the materials at home, but, if you need to buy some of the things you could probably still do this for under $5 is my guess! If this is TOO simple for you - I think you could put frames around each piece or maybe some ribbon ties. I might still do the ribbon eventually...but for now, simple is the name of the game.


My big girl already loves her room - and this was a special, homemade craft by mommy that she thinks is pretty cool, too! And mommy loves that it was FREE! :)

Thursday, September 15, 2011

My heart is full these days


I adore these days. simple. cool. different.
After a summer of heat and business and chaos its nice to sit back and just live. Not that I wasn't living this summer...but, for those of you like myself who enjoy Autumn the MOST, maybe you know what I mean.

This morning our home is cool and smells like bacon. We actually had family breakfast this morning - cheesy egg sandwiches, bacon and milk. We are wearing blankets and cuddled up on the couch enjoying the chilly morning. I won't turn on the heat... I won't. The children are playing on the floor and our littlest is sleeping. It's calm. Hubby spoiled me and got us coffee drinks from a local coffee shop - add pumpkin pie latte scent to bacon. It's awesome. Why do scents make me feel so alive?

This past weekend we went on a leaders retreat with our youth leaders. It was a great time of connecting and praying and planning. 3 of my favorite things. And while I loved the volleyball games, sessions, Iowa football game (NOT) and our housing... the thing I loved most was my nap under the tree. Yep. I was the crazy lady sleeping under a tree at camp. :) And I know you've heard me blabber on and on of how I love nature, etc. It was such an encouraging and refreshing time to watch the sky by myself, alone, for an extended time. I keep thinking of that nap. Clearly, I was impacted by just enjoying creation. So thankful for that opportunity.

My girls are growing and changing. August is so close to rolling over. She is precious, and smiley and content almost all the time. We'll start cereal already next week! Lately I've found myself lingering over feedings, taking extra time in the rocking chair or just sneaking in minutes during diaper changes just admiring my little one. It really does go by so quickly. Ava will turn 3 in December. I've already shed a few tears thinking about that. She's so smart and beautiful. Her favorite thing right now is watching Mary Poppins and speaking in a British accent. Hilarious. Most days I feel like a failure as I'm learning how to communicate with her, teach her and train her for this life. God is good and His Grace is sufficient...so thankful for His Grace in my life.

Hubs is going away this weekend for a mens retreat. I'm praying he enjoys his time and comes home rejuvenated. We are busy, busy with the fall schedule. There is always some sports game or band show or student activity. We love this life and we are thankful to impact lives and have our own influenced, as well. I'm thankful for the routine of the Fall.

My heart is very full lately. I still can't put my finger on just WHAT exactly it is...perhaps its just being. I'm so blessed. We are learning so much and growing a little more each day.
Autumn brings out the best in me...

Monday, September 12, 2011

And the list goes on... in Multitudes






I miss blogging. I'm still trying to figure out when the best time for me to blog will be. If you aren't in my "loop" of info... I'm now babysitting full time from 7:15-4:15pm. It's a long day, and while usually always a good thing - doesn't leave much time for blogging or even down time. I think I'm going to plug back into blogging at night once my children are in bed and I've spent time with my hubby. That used to be my best time, we'll try that again. :) Because I really do miss blogging and reading blogs.

Wow - what a weekend! I have seen the Lord move and work so clearly in just the last 3 days. We had our first annual Youth Leaders Retreat at Hidden Acres on Friday night into Saturday afternoon. It was awesome. An excellent group of people who are passionate and on board with the ministry! My husband and I are still grinning about what a great time it was and how encouraged we are.


We got home Saturday evening around 7:30ish and hubs checked the mail. He opened it and just said, "wow". Then handed me a letter from my very sweet Grandma with a check inside the letter. I cried. I had been quietly praying and asking the Lord to provide for some things and HERE was that provision in the form of a loving letter from my Grandma. She said the Lord had laid us on her heart... THAT'S MY GOD! He knows.


The provision doesn't end there. Though, that would be enough to satisfy me. Sunday after church I was driving home with my girls. Because my husband is a Pastor, I'm almost always alone on that drive home. So I've found creative ways to "entertain" my eldest as she sometimes just wants daddy... not me. :) This day we listened to her Veggie Tales CD and that seemed to do the trick. When we pulled onto our street something caught my eye on the sidewalk a few houses before ours. As I approached I couldn't believe my eyes - one of those little Tikes houses. Someone was just throwing it out. It was perfectly good and just sitting there. I pointed it out to Ava and asked if we should go investigate. We parked the van in our driveway and skipped down - and just at that time the neighbor giving it away was in her yard. I asked her if she was tossing it and she was! I got permission to take it and permission was given! I couldn't believe this was happening. My momma's heart had SO wanted to be able to give my children something like this...but, it wasn't financially possibly. Something we just didn't NEED. And now here was this house in GREAT shape, totally free for the taking. I attempted to take the house and realized it would take a few trips...when I looked up I saw two other neighbors coming to help me. I had never met these people before and was completely blown away. We don't live on the friendliest street and this really surprised me. So here we went walking down the sidewalk carrying this toy house in parts. Neighbors. Doing neighborly things. I was beaming. And now we have this amazing new play house in our back yard - another reminder to me of how intimately the Lord knows us... our deepest fears, muttered prayers and mother-heart longings. And He cares about every detail. On top of all of this, here is my offering of Thanksgiving to my God thismorning:



-Watching my big girl give her sister a bottle


-caribou coffee

-lots of coupons in Sundays paper

-baby almost ready to give up that 10:30 bottle. Thus meaning MORE sleep for momma.

-early mornings, alone, quiet, in the word...

-duck, footie pajamas

-pinecones on my table

-green afghan on a chilly morn

-two working, paid for, cars

-dishwasher

-cable tv for one more day

-our home



What a mighty God we serve. :) Giver of ALL things. I'm so thankful today...You?