HE is higher

"Hear my cry, O God; Attend to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will cry to You, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I."

Psalm 61:1-2

It happened again. Instead of being a cool, calm, collected momma I lost my patience and resorted to voice raising and rash decision. I hate disobedience. And what a glimpse I get of how God must feel about ours towards Him each and every time my daughter does the opposite of my desires. Just a glimpse.

My heart absolutely falls to the floor after those moments. I feel like a failure. The Lord knows my heart, my shortcomings {aka: sin} and He deals with me so graciously. My bible reading today was perfect for where I was and I was left so encouraged and motivated to cling even tighter to His truth today. My high rock.

In the little devotional I was reading that went along with this chapter in Psalms there was a question/thought at the end that got me thinking:

"When we get discouraged, we need to follow this pattern for ourselves. Seek strength from God (vs1), remind yourself of who He is and what He has done, and then, get back to work (vs8). Which one of those steps do you need to take today?" {source: Ontrack devos}

For me - the answer is GET BACK TO WORK. When I feel defeated or like a failure I just want to quit. Give up. Discipline doesn't seem to be working... give up. Potty training is taking a zillion years... just quit. The baby won't take naps and I'm exhausted and don't feel like taking care of my home or being the adult... don't. That's the easy way, and sadly, the way my human-ness seems to veer. But David's example in Psalm 61 is the opposite - he ends Psalm 61 with this verse -

"So I will sing praise to Your name forever, That I may daily perform my vows." (vs 8)

Challenging. In a world today where mom's leave their families if they "can't handle it", dad's take off when things get rocky, teens quit school if its too difficult, and public leaders resign when the pressure gets to be too much - it's such a contrast on how to live. So thankful that when the going gets tough and my heart is overwhelmed, like David, I can cling to the Rock that is so much higher then I.