Wednesday, July 13, 2011

still hangin' on

I didn't think that by July 13th I would still be writing about being sick.
I also didn't expect this "day by day" mentality to get to me. I'm ok with "day by day" or "day at a time" because I know that's all we have anyway.

But, all the same...

July 13th. And I feel like the tunnel I'm in has no end. I know there is light at the end of it, I see it faintly. But for right now it's just turn after turn of tunnel. I'm still hangin' on and we'll get through this - but I would be lying if I acted like it was easy.

Saw my Infectious Disease doctor today. Doesn't that just sound lovely? INFECTIOUS DISEASE. Ugh. He says while my liver enzyme levels are coming down - they are still rediculously high. Normal is in like the 60's. I was in the 600's and am now in the 300's. So yea - a liver freak. Which explains my ZERO energy. Literally zero. Walk across the room and call it a day is my level of energy. Makes life interesting with 2 kids 2 and under.

My family came to be with me and take care of me this week - which was awesome. I hadn't seen my brother and his family in months. We packed 6 adults, 2 toddlers and 2 babies into this place and I loved every second of it. I miss them so much already. What a blessing to have a close family.

Sitting here has completely drained me. So, time for a nap. I'm hangin' on - God has me in His hand, and I know that.

1 comment:

Amy@My Front Porch said...

Oh mandi...i was in that tunnel earlier this year (tho different circumstances) and I know how you feel! Day by day, His mercies are new...He has your good in mind, even when it doesn't feel that way. Love you! And so glad your family could come...there's just nothing like your mama when you're sick...